... to live to live in a stable numbness without hope determined to stay that way without hope to stay without hope live silently only waiting without hope frustration gone anxiety, gone because hope is gone a memory that there was a pain but now there is a freedom because hope is gone because hope is gone and then comes someone who insists convincing you convincing you convincing you convincing you until you believe and suddenly - you are in hope again you know better - but you are in hope again you are in hope you are in hope you are in hope ! y o u a r e i n h o p e you a r e and then - they betray you ( of course they do ) (they always do) and there you are stunned stunned dazed unable to understand anything else but the gigantic unfairness of the proportions - to be trustful when you know better to trust when you knew better and then they betrayed you ( of course they did ) (they always do) you are, a bathroom mirror, inside your own radical break asking was my fragile slowly carefully cherished emerging hazily passing grasping aliveness worth this same pain again this same pain again this pain again pain that you were given this time worth the same pain again i was given this time worth the same pain again you were given i was you, in the bathroom mirror and the proportions of the insignificance of everything everything - so enormous there is nothing there is nothing and it says, mirror it was true, i was true all along you were right it was true i was right, it was true there really is not a n y t h i n g a n y t h i n g - not a thing anymore - not a thing Not a thing. ... determined : i'll go away i'll go away, i'll be on timer for a while, i'll be on hold for a while, i'll be alone for some time, a year a decade a century and nobody will notice i'll be away i'll be on timer for a while i'll be away and nobody will know. [ /i'll be on timer for a while ] what is wrong with hope was originally written and published in A I R B O R N E by © 2017 Tiina Hölli 14.7.17 20:20 | awaking radical breaks | |
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... says she
doesn't give a flying fck, [ paskat nakkaa ] but still thinks amazingly much about Nothing ... and Being ... ... has some Knowledge about Nothing and / or vice versa. [ Loves Immaterial ] F. A. Q. : W T F Tiina Hölli : - Lila -
Read Robert M. Pirsig 2005 acrylic on board 19 x 130 cm A I R B O R N E
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