some questions repeatedly sent
to one anonymous independent fine art professional
[ returned unopened that's why repeatedly ]
[ persistent suckers ]
what makes a pro ?
is it for yourself to decide or others to define ?
when did u start to feel like a pro ?
[ i don't know how a pro feels, how the heck would i know how others truely feel, this is an absurd question, who put it here? ] [ i started to concider myself a pro when i noticed i don't give a sht. until then i called myself a pro but i knew i was only pretending. ]
how does one become pro ?
[ painfully ]
am i pro ? yes i am.
is it like an obsession to be an artist ?
is it like you don´t have any other choise ?
are you thinking art things all the time where ever you are ?
[ who the fck puts these questions here ? ? do i really have to think about this now ? i have better things to do for crying out loud ]
have you always been an artist ?
have you always felt like an artist?
how does it feel to be an artist ?
[ ooh fck am i annoyed with this one - i am what i am, what can i say? i cannot go and examine every fcker's head and compare myself to them, this is ridiculous. i knew this would be useless. i go now, i'm done here bye ]
when did you notice you are an artist ?
[ oh sht, this one is more clever. hmm, wait a minute, when did i notice i am an artist. i think it was in august 1998 ? i cannot be sure now, i'll have to check, but maybe the 14th ? might have been 2000 ? also ? it sort of comes and goes ]
as i finally got in contact with pros and started to see some similarities in our ways to think and exist, also work as being - so in my mind i got a title of a status to tell as a public excuse for this my being, and doing, that's all
Take The AQ Test
me : 29
add-on on Tuesday 2015-08-11 :
Well this one was pretty accurate !
Macy Gray - Beauty In The World
if you had a chance - would you do it all over again ?
the art part ...?
yes, why not ?
there's no beginning, there's no end
what about colleagues,
how do you artists and cultural workers act together ?
do you have much cowork?
do you share thoughts and ideas with each other ?
[ this must be a trick question ... i will not answer properly until i know where this one is heading ]
yes, as an artist i have collaborations as well as any other social-worker in culture who gets zero salary, nor gratitude or return services from their professional labour.
but why do you accept to work free and maintain the human culture ?
[ because i´m stupid and only my near-memory is functioning anymore ? ]
it is a generally known ideology, that one never knows what will come around from behind the corner, so i am all the time telling myself that someday this will pay off, even if i am not here to see that day anymore
[ yea right ... and now this one does the exact same gesture as all the rest at this point : smiles content to get another pro freebie from a tonto artist ]
how can you cope with not getting any attention ?
are not artists the worst case of attention seekers of all ?
why do artists almost beg to get some feedback ?
[ oh geepers. this is a hard one. long story. well in fact not so long. but i am so tired even to try to start to explain this. oh sigh. how to tell this. they never believe it anyway. so many so many so many uninterested and totally indifferent people. they all keep their prejudices no matter what i say because they do not even bother to listen. why do they then ask, i do not know. this is a mystery. why the fck this one even comes to me asking these questions if not interested in my doings for the first place. totally in self-denial this one is. oh sigh. is it my fault if his life is miserable ? ]
[ ookay ... sigh ]
[ ... so if i start with that " already in art school i said i shall remain anonymous " blaah blaah they stop to listen right there. no no no - wtf am i stupid. oh gesses. i almost went on with this. whooopey. i am too ... well, what ever. i am not going to go into this all over again. ]
well - in most cases, artists work alone, some for years without getting any attention or feedback from anybody outside their studio. when the work is done, of course some need to get feedback is natural. would you yourself be able to work for months without any talks what so ever about what you are doing the whole day and daily?
but what about art critique ?
[ what art critique ? seen any lately ? ]
[ there is a point of no return. after that you just don't give a sht. ]
[ you just do your thing, no matter what anybody says. after this , no one usually says anything, in fact. ]
yes, what about it ?
why are all artists so touchy ?
they seem to get upset very easyly if someone criticises them ?
[ w h a t ? ? ? one of these wise asses again ? ? where do these idiots come from ? do they fall from trees ? ? seems there is no common sense in even these most common people ? ? why the heck do these incompetent fckers think that artists are somehow immune to constant accusations and complaining and blaming and nagging about doing their job badly ? ? ? wtf is wrong with these people ? ? are they really this stupid ? ? but they cannot even draw ! is this supposed to be intelligent questioning ? ? has this individual really gone to some vocational school to learn this question-making for years, and this is the result ? ? does this one really think someone is going to pay for this ? ? this is useless i knew this i'm getting out of here fckers brgbrgffuckbrrghpföööffuckwotidiots ]
and how would you react, if totally unknown people that you have never in your life even seen before came to your working place one after another, day after day and started to complain about your professional skills and working methods ?
in art it is expected to be expressive and direct,
and aren't all artists supposed to be very open
and tell all their secrets openly to everybody ?
[ ! ? ! ] ... and who told you this ? ?
why do you artists have these continuously repetitive routine opening parties called exhibition vernissage so frequently,
if nobody likes them and everybody hates them
and nobody even goes to these events anymore ?
[ yep. this one hit the jackpot here with this question. i've never understood this myself. why are we forced to be megasocial after a long period of working alone, and then fail terribly at it and feel humiliated and just screwed up once again. i understand very well how it happens : who has the energy and funds to put emphasis suddenly in a high peak of a few hours after all the work we've done with our art works alone for months ? if one poor artist wants to get some entertainment to the opening, it means that there will also be some humiliating begging done already before the occasion to ask some entertaining-able colleague from another discipline to come and entertain for free, and also, it means that this artist does not believe in his or her own works to be able to entertain the guests enough for a few hours with only the works and talks ? and yes, as only the same faces appear there time after time ? booooring ... and none of them will buy anyway, they are all other poor artists, anyway, and most likely they do not even appreciate the works shown there, they just come because they have to, and next time they will get as visitors these same faces in return. this is totally absurd, i know i know. how to give an intelligent answer to this ? ]
are artists better in sex ?
[ better than what ? of course they are ]
written & published in A I R B O R N E by © 2015 Tiina Hölli 2015-02-03
... says she
doesn't give a sht,
[ paskat nakkaa ]
but still thinks amazingly much about
and Being ...
... has some Knowledge
and / or vice versa.
[ Loves Immaterial ]
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