Writing this prolog afterwords (on Tuesday evening 2019-03-12 22:28) in the middle of my painting session days. Just to make a note.
So i am on my working on-on-my-painting--not-anything-else-basicly-thing.
I am not comprehensible at the moment. I don't need to be.
But surprisingly, as i dropped my expectations and just having fun here, i got (instead of stress) some fun out of net too. The light has been so good, and there is only so much one has energy to work on painting in a day. Results are remarkable tho, I must say. I bottled up energy for this, so it comes out with a bädäng. Then i got some other optional external fun functions to attend. I am going to. Go. And even that is not a distraction anymore, even that doesn't have a disturbing impact on my painting anymore because all is fun. This is an amazing Shift.
I make a note here not explaining too much but for myself to remember what i was discovering about the subject below in February and now - maybe i'll tell later, but it is about the difference between digital art and digital images of original hand made art.
I guess you'll get the picture by comparing these 2 recent images below. The images were taken 2019-02-22 and 2019-02-17 from paintings done on those days. As a viewer i can say without a doubt which one is more interesting to study - as a viewer, and yes, as a painter and as a visual artist. One is a temporary, transient, random miracle, the other is a permanent, tactile, haptic, tangible wonder turning around and returning, and staying in mind as a desire to experience it again with one or more senses - a palpable... thing ? While the other is just ... switched off ?
Ascension Symptoms 1, 2019 | digital art & photo © 2019 Tiina Hölli
i'll tell more later i'll even put links down here later (maybe) [done] but so ! my painting period begun and the light has been fabulous and i did cut out my net time and sort of been in radio silence as i know i am to and every minute second that i am i melt in with the painting but what am i doing now in here then ? i have been painting and enjoying the daylight generated expansion of life quality and the doing itself in the daylight and the bliss and got so energetic with it all already in the first few days and of course fasting that while i had to choose Kaapeli works i got a brilliant new idea and ex tempore launched a new Instagram page for a new collection for new more raw square paintings with acrylic and pencil for 444 € because that's the activation sequence for me at the moment and today i first thought i got sidetracked from all that as full moon in virgo with all its gargantuan side happenings approaching on 2019-02-19 and suddenly instead of real painting painting i did, on the basis of one of the new paintings i did, i did a digital art work i did, and that got me thinking about the differencies in freshness and authenticity between the tactile haptic genuine original handmade surface structured painting painting & all that conveyed in these new digital images of these new [& in general] abstract raw paintings on my new Instagram collection and the way the natural light changes comparing it and the first Instagram collection i compiled as 17 7 17 - 17 11 17 in differently bright mid-summer light and that all, potentially, does it even exist in a digital abstract painting as an image, not, i don't think so. not as an image of a painting which is tactile haptic to begin with but still. the digital art image is also genuine original handmade but 2D structural. the basis painting for it was photographed in 3D, the original photograph is as the others and it exists of the light on my own surface structured painting. is it conveyed ? if not, why is it not conveyed in digital art of that same piece ?
after completed the digital art work, i was content with the result but i could not make me upload the work (above) on that new Instagram collection.
i guess that answered the question.
they do not match.
they do not match.
it is clear, it is the sign, it is the symbol, it is the abstract of this whole dilemma that we are in now as humanity, in it deep.
and the first and clearest symptom that you are sidetracked in this 3D is feeling confused, and i am not confused at all.
so next i guess i am solving the question of purpose ?
this is how i feel and where i am now, and the point is now to feel and be where you'd love to feel and be yourself love to be and feel yourself so i guess am in as balance as i want with these symptoms appearing as such.
at what interests me at a given moment.
Listening to :
HATE music collective 2016-10-17 :
Artefakt - Curvature Of Mind [SBCV003]
Adrienne Elise 2019-02-17 :
Gaia Update: Mercury Retrograde March 2019 - SHIFTING REALITY
this whole video is a masterpiece, but watch for example
timestamp at 20:23 https://youtu.be/qivLoVMhJJM?t=1223
Artsy Editorial Casey Lesser 2019-02-14 :
How Seasonal Affective Disorder Impacts Artists’ Productivity
Yle 1 Tiedeykkönen Extra Leena Mattila 2018-10-05 :
Ilmastonmuutos: Kestääkö pohjoinen havumetsävyöhyke ilman kunnon talvea?
... says she
doesn't give a sht,
[ paskat nakkaa ]
but still thinks amazingly much about
and Being ...
... has some Knowledge
and / or vice versa.
[ Loves Immaterial ]
F. A. Q. : W T F
Tiina Hölli : - Lila -
Read Robert M. Pirsig
acrylic on board
19 x 130 cm
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