Can a prolonged wait be a reward ?
Can prolonged waiting be rewarding ?
Can waiting become rewarding in a prolonged stuck ?
( - what if one forgot already long ago what The Purpose of The Wait was - )
What if the wait ate - The Joy - from any rewards promised ?
( - it was so long ago too long ago ...
the world has turned so many times since then too many Moons ...
... everything changes everything )
what if one does not acknowledge The Reward anymore
as a reward at all
- at all ?
and then, when The Reward finally announces
" Now I Shall Return & You Will Rejoice " ?
( - it just seems ridiculous )
- what if The Return does not feel like The Reward at all ?
- at all ?
( not now, not tomorrow, not in The Future,
and not in any of these yesterdays
ever again anymore )
What if The Time has eaten its own tail ?
What if one sees all too clearly all too, them, all - - - -
( What if one just does not care anymore ? )
( What if )
( What if )
( What if waiting and scheduling one's lifeline is a bore ? )
a bore !
( yes what if it is a bore to live scheduled to only wait and wait for results ? )
of the whims of too emotionally unstable women-men
( one never even met them yet )
( not that one wanted to )
what if ?
Why the fuck this stuck ?
A stuck is a stuck is a stuck.
How could it be The Reward at the same time ?
How can it be The Reward ?
( - how can one make it so ? )
if one takes it eats it accepts it swallows it
as one's O W N
and stops waiting.
The Reward stops being a reward
The Return stops being the beloved the waited the aimed return
The Stuck stops being a wait
The Waiting stops being a stuck
- and suddenly the living becomes back again The Life of a Lively Thing.
[ - M O B I L E - ]
[ -A G A I N - ]
The radical break is near, but there is nothing you can do but wait, and this is because of the circumstances being stuck - not you. Patience.
Weather camera 24 h lapse Helsinki, update every 5 minutes
During these 31 days in August 2017 of me making this structure, the total daylight time during one day in Helsinki Finland will shorten with 2 hours and 36 minutes from August 1, 2017 to August 31, 2017. Continuing to do so all the way until The Second Sacred Solstice of 2017 Thor's Day December 21st at 18:28 (Northern Hemisphere).
Auringon nousu- ja laskuaika Helsingissä
tiistaina 1.8.2017 05:00 ja 21:51
torstaina 31.8.2017 06:12 ja 20:27
Think about that for a minute.
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